darkfyre_muse: (rainbow fairy)
Well hello there long form social media, what have you been up to?
Well I noticed a few years ago that I had lost my voice. And in responding to a good friend last week I think I finally remembered the last place I may have seen it. That was with you. I was lured over to the short, fast world of modern social media. And while I have uses for that medium I am never as honest as am here.

But since here isn't quite where I left it I am looking for recommendations of building my reading page up.
darkfyre_muse: (Default)
So like the lovely Make_your_move I am striving to post more this year. Both here in long form and on Facebook. (One of the things I learned about life from Burning Man is that you can only thrive in the community if you help create it.)She posted this Q&A meme that seems like a good starting point for someone who hasn't posted much/any in the last year.

1. What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?
knitted a sock. Seriously I can think of nothing more pedestrian than that. Damn I need to gte out more.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't make resolutions. Though I do use the Solstice and the New Year as points to reflect on the past and visualize the future.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not truly close. Ciaran got a new cousin and an acquaintance welcomed her second son.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No. I'm thankful for that, so many of my friends have lost loved ones.

5. What countries did you visit?
None. The passports are terribly dusty and my boots aren't dusty enough.

6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
Sanity. A job. Passion.

7. What date from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
None. There was no one moment that happened just a swirling storm.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting us all through healthy and breathing. Some days that is nough.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not dealing with a bad situation like a grown-up. Not maintaining my relationships.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Physically no. My healthy body has always compensated for the trainwreck that is my brain.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
seriously? this is a question?

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
julesk (as usual), my sister's girlfriend, my sister

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
There is a list, a short one, but I don't want to point fingers, I have no right to.

14. Where did most of your money go?
What little there is: food, mortgage, electrcity

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
A trip that didn't happen, Ciaran turning 2

16. What song will always remind you of 2013?
"Just give me a reason"
- P!nk

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
happier or sadder? sadder,
thinner or fatter? fatter
richer or poorer? poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
travel, burning

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
crying, hiding, regretting

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
We spent it at home in VA with good friends and a curious two year old.

22. Did you fall in love in 2013?

23. How many one-night stands?
none, better luck next year

24. What was your favourite TV program?
don't think I had one.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I fight hate, but it is sometimes hard. No one this year truly earned it, nor indifference, though it was close.

26. What was the best book you read?

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Penatonix, not my usual but tons of fun.

28. What did you want and get?
a happy kid

29. What did you want and not get?
some close, personal time with a lady I want to be closer to

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
did I watch any movies this year?

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 36, and I made cupcakes

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more sex and more play

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
what fits?

34. What kept you sane?
you're funny. But julesk kept me off the edge.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
P!nk, my hero.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Healthcare, women's rights

37. Who did you miss?
Christine, my sister, someone I haven't seen in a decade

38. Who were the best new people you met?
Amber and Brian. (Technically 2012, but we didn't hang out then)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013
It's not a new one, but I keep forgetting. You never get what you don't ask for. And if it matters you'll get it done yourself.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent

It's been one hell of a year. Wish I could say it was unique, but just the same old crap. Here's to working for a better 2014.
darkfyre_muse: (river's feet)
It is a new year. And as seems to be my usual I find myself reflecting on a year that was more down than up. A year where I again found myself mistaking happy for manic, just because I forgot what it feels like. And then this week I remembered, was reminded, that the soul must be fed. And that my soul does not thrive on light alone. I need the passionate dark that is not hiding but celebrating its pain. Riding agony and unrequited love through the night on a dark horse from hell.

(I’m not a writer, so I am shameless in the face of my bad emo metaphors. They sound juvenile, I am sure, but are cathartic none the less.)
darkfyre_muse: (fae wire)
Would she smile if she knew how much I miss her blade?


Dec. 1st, 2013 22:08
darkfyre_muse: (veil)
Words words everywhere, but not a voice to speak.
darkfyre_muse: (kill coffee)
Life moves along. I am now working at Trader Joe's in Old Town Alexandria. It's fun, if a little overwhelmingly perky. Still looking for a permanent architecture gig.

In Seattle this weekend for a wedding. It has been bright and sunny since Thursday. Where is my bay gloom? /pout
However fun none the less. Went to the Seattle Art Museum and Pike's Market Thursday. Checked out the Seattle Center and Space Needle yesterday, then saaw Thor. (It was meh) Wedding this afternoon, outside so hopefully the weather will hold.

Well off to grab a nap.
darkfyre_muse: (darkside cookies)
via Naamah_Darling: strange personality test http://www.hypnoid.com/psytest2.html

More right than wrong...

"Handy in the real world manipulation of objects and events, you are easily enthused by practical projects. You often ignore or conveniently forget rules and boundaries that limit your freedom. This need for freedom extends even to the personal sphere and though you are kind and gentle, you will often be hard to pin down to a monogamous lifestyle. Because you tend to verbalize so seldom, you can be seen as phlegmatic or impassive. In moments of high tension you can often surprise those around you with a lighthearted or humorous remark. Because of your facility with the physical world, you are often engaged in sports that require dexterity, such as motorcycling or hang gliding. You will rarely have time for flights of fancy or unproductive discussion. Constraints on your freedom will be regarded as a personal attack."
darkfyre_muse: (loyal bitches)
Hoping to get some feminism and pro-woman stuff up this month. And hopefully more than just links, but I need to start somewhere.
Tuesday was National Women's Day but this is still a good article, even if it's late.
darkfyre_muse: (TV tights)
I own you people about a hundred posts. I also need to clean my car, this seems more interesting. Let's start with an update.

January was good. March is going well so far. February was pretty craptastic. Once again proving that little catastrophes can make me tail spin. Live learn and get over it. (I am also officially not allowed to say 'rocks fall, everyone dies.' Some say it was having a negative impact on my attitude. go figure)

Let's stick to the good and the present. Spring seems to be settling in. There has been rainy and warm(-ish) days in the last week. Makes me happy. I am finding actual job listings that I am actually qualified for to apply to. It's a good thing. I also made a post to my professional blog yesterday, with hopefully more to come. ( http://architectsmuse.blogspot.com/ ) It was just a link with a comment, but its a start. I find that being an active member of the internet makes me happier than just being a consumer. That just means fighting my innate tendency to just lurk. Bad lurker no cookie.

Attending a birthday party tonight for some good friends, promises to be much fun, complete with cupcakes. My hair is currently a bright shiny red that sparkles in the sun. I have a fire spinning gig in May. Not paid, but performing is performing and it has been far to long since I felt that rush.

The mental health front is improving as well. I am working at getting out of my comfort zone and doing positive productive things involving other human beings. People are good, so interaction should be a good thing. Learning new coping techniques for when things get derailed. Habits to get into now while things are good so I will remember to do them when things aren't. I also dropped the dosage of one med to reduce side effects. It got rid of the one we were concerned with, but I just found out that the same drug is most likely contributing to my lack of attention span recently. It's not the only reason, but getting off it would help.

All to the good. Let's see, what else? Doing more reading this month than I have in awhile. You can pop over to goodreads ( http://www.goodreads.com/review/list/4740272-megan?shelf=currently-reading ) to see what I've been up to. Still looking for good, engaging non-fiction, so let me know if you know of something great.

kk that's all for now.
darkfyre_muse: (black butterfly)
Signal Boost! This is the site of a photographer that does beautiful work. She is having trouble finding gigs right now so is trying to sell more of her art prints. If you enjoy fine photography check it out. She is currently running a 20% off special. To access the store go to Featured then click Fine Art Store.


For more info on her and what's going on check out her LJ: http://babyslime.livejournal.com/

Enjoy the Pretties.
darkfyre_muse: (kill coffee)
Yea I suck,but you all read anyway. weird.

So what's been going on?

resumes resumes resumes (ew.) and a coverletter (double ew.) even some networking. (no I don't really know how but don't tell anyone that) So I am getting stuff out there and that is good. Let's hope I get something back.

Last Saturday was wine and cheese and good friends and conversation.

But there was snow too. Have I mentioned I hate snow? Especially when mixed with icy nastiness that kills cars. It isn't totally dead but we're not sure if it's worth fixing. (yes this is from 2 weeks ago but there has been a delay and we're still sorting shit out.)

Wednesday was goat shearing with reedrover. It was fun, I even got to wrangle a goat for the first time. But my fun was cut short by some bad timing and a pre-scheduled webinar.

Thursday I finished my Green Building continuing education. Well sort of. All they credits are complete they just won't let me submit it until "closer to your due date". WTF!

The last 2 weeks have been rough in all the ways I don't have words for. I perpetually have things to say but not a voice to say them with. Working on that I promise.

ciao ciao
darkfyre_muse: (candle)
I haven't been following this as closely as I should but here is a good piece highlighting the passion of the Egyptian people.

darkfyre_muse: (geek girl)
February promotes awareness of to important issues.

Firstly it is Black History Month. Later I may post something more involved as to why I think Black History month is important. If you don't agree, ask and we can discuss. Needless to say I feel that it is valid and important to be celebrating African American history, both as a society and as individuals trying to expand our horizons and better understand out fellow man. And in the spirit of spreading knowledge, I leave you with linkies. Go forth and increase your brain.

A brief look at the Harlem Renaissance -- http://www.biography.com/blackhistory/harlem-renaissance.jsp

Octavia Butler was a brilliant author. If you have the time I highly recommend The Parable of the Sower, a very different post-apocalyptic telling. -- http://www.biography.com/articles/Octavia-E.-Butler-38207

February is also American Heart Month. Heart disease is the #1 killer of both men AND women in this country. More than All cancers combined. No one is exempt. So go out and do something for your heart today.
This is why there is a red dress on my dayrunner -- http://www.goredforwomen.org/
darkfyre_muse: (Default)
Does anyone have any idea as to why my LJ posts will no longer post to my Facebook? (yes I am checking the box)

darkfyre_muse: (TV tights)
Life is going well. Being productive most days getting resumes out the door and catching up on my continuing education stuff. Should have all of that done by next wednesday. Therapy is on hold for the next 2 weeks as she is out on emergency leave. /shrug So it goes. I am maintaining momentum at the moment so let's hope I can keep it up.

Have been keeping up with social as well. (the only down being that it is doing crap for the whole eating healthy thing.) Some club nights, lots of gaming, a wedding and gaming and even some familial socialness going on.
Tonight I went to the theater with quixotic_goat. We have season tickets to the Studio Theater, which means once every other month we are required to go out for something different. Tonight's offering was amazing. Marcus; or the Secret of Sweet, (http://www.studiotheatre.org/calendar/view.aspx?id=1505) is about a young man comin to terms with his sexuality and how it fits into his life as a black man in rural Louisiana. It is running through the 20th and I highly recommend checking it out.

Hopefully there will be more later.
darkfyre_muse: (loyal bitches)
I have not the words for how frightening this is.

Number one, defining rape as forcible rape only is Insane! date rape is rape; drugged rape is rape. The only defining factor should be a lack of consent. Did you say yes? If not it's rape. Is society really becoming this barbaric? (and yes I meant to use that strong a word)

Second, are we really going to let someone legislate a backdoor reversal of Roe v Wade? Because things like penalizing private companies for having abortion included in their health plan is exactly that.

ok rant over. Now I need to go be civil to a member of congress.
darkfyre_muse: (snowflake)
As promised, more content.

Quizzies under cuts )
darkfyre_muse: (willow-dork)
So I was talking to an acquaintance last night about the eminent decline of LJ. She had a pretty good point that much of the casual I did this today and quizzies have all moved to Facebook. /nod true enough. However regardless of my presence over at Facebook I still have a affection and purpose for LJ. I like reading longer thoughtful posts that most don't bother with on Facebook. I also like the communities and it is where all my external blogs feed to. So, in an effort to make my contribution to the continued success of LJ, I am making an official effort to post everyday for the month of February, and hopeful to continue into the rest of the year. So I will leave you with a poll.

[Poll #1674720]
darkfyre_muse: (Default)
I started this on the third, I'll finish it now.

There is a lot I need to accomplish this year.
Some are pretty straight forward. Make my gym time more regular. Floss. Eat more vegetables.

Some are more complicated.
Get a job.
Buy a house.
Find a therapist.
Make progress with said therapist.

Make progress on a few. Violently avoiding the rest.
darkfyre_muse: (illyria scream)
Yes I am a weather wimp. My driveway is a skating rink = no yoga tonight

January 2017


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