The Musings of a Wandering Soul

I own you people about a hundred posts. I also need to clean my car, this seems more interesting. Let's start with an update.

January was good. March is going well so far. February was pretty craptastic. Once again proving that little catastrophes can make me tail spin. Live learn and get over it. (I am also officially not allowed to say 'rocks fall, everyone dies.' Some say it was having a negative impact on my attitude. go figure)

Let's stick to the good and the present. Spring seems to be settling in. There has been rainy and warm(-ish) days in the last week. Makes me happy. I am finding actual job listings that I am actually qualified for to apply to. It's a good thing. I also made a post to my professional blog yesterday, with hopefully more to come. ( http://architectsmuse.blogspot.com/ ) It was just a link with a comment, but its a start. I find that being an active member of the internet makes me happier than just being a consumer. That just means fighting my innate tendency to just lurk. Bad lurker no cookie.

Attending a birthday party tonight for some good friends, promises to be much fun, complete with cupcakes. My hair is currently a bright shiny red that sparkles in the sun. I have a fire spinning gig in May. Not paid, but performing is performing and it has been far to long since I felt that rush.

The mental health front is improving as well. I am working at getting out of my comfort zone and doing positive productive things involving other human beings. People are good, so interaction should be a good thing. Learning new coping techniques for when things get derailed. Habits to get into now while things are good so I will remember to do them when things aren't. I also dropped the dosage of one med to reduce side effects. It got rid of the one we were concerned with, but I just found out that the same drug is most likely contributing to my lack of attention span recently. It's not the only reason, but getting off it would help.

All to the good. Let's see, what else? Doing more reading this month than I have in awhile. You can pop over to goodreads ( http://www.goodreads.com/review/list/4740272-megan?shelf=currently-reading ) to see what I've been up to. Still looking for good, engaging non-fiction, so let me know if you know of something great.

kk that's all for now.

We spent the morning in Central Park. Starting at the Natural History Museum and worked our way south. It was lovely and relaxing. We went in with a map and not really a plan. That seems to be my travel plan these days, but wandering is fun and that was the name of the game this weekend. Then we headed into midtown and visited Rockefeller center, before heading to Grand Central for lunch with J. We visited the Morgan Library, where J works, which has a beautiful atrium connecting the museum and library. It was designed by Renzo Piano and is absolutely gorgeous. I unfortunately couldn't take pictures and didn't have a sketch book. :( (need to get a new one of those) After that we said good-bye to J and went in search of the Highline. ( www.thehighline.org ) It is the old elevated train tracks that have been converted into gardens and a walking path. It is very well done. With many allusions to its origin. We walked the full length from 20th St down to the West Village. Where we wandered around and had dinner at a great mexican place. (Tequila cured salmon ceviche with mango pico de gallo and orange infused salt. omg yumm)

It was a wonderful day topped off by white wine and scrabble with J and dizzylama.

--> Saturday morning, went to a 'how to but your first house' workshop. I enjoyed most of it, learned a lot, got really excited about finding and buying a house(a new concept for me) and walked away with a $10 giftcaard

--> Saturday afternoon: went to a volunteer training for Adaptive Aquatics at the rec center. (swimming lessons for adults and children with physical and/or mental diabilities) The classroom discussion was very interesting, the water session was 2 instructors trying to teach a bunch of non instructors to teach basic skills. (as a 10 year veteran of teaching swimming, lifeguarding and water safety I was not amused.)

--> Saturday night: Board games at Saxby's coffee

--> Sunday: BBQ and fire spinning and general fun at blushing_grace and arashinomoui's. Fire, food and new faces, could I ask for more?

So a wholely fun, busy, lovely weekend. Today I sew, clean and nap. Quietly. :)

a situational extrovert?

I still and probably will always identify as an introvert. And it is still very true that I find social interaction ultimately tiring regardless of my response in the moment. But I am finding more and more that, given the right circumstances, I can be/appear to be a strong extrovert. Take my volunteer training course today. It was a topic I am familiar and enthusiastic about, teaching swimming and teaching people with disabilities. I am excited about the topics and about the opportunity, so I found myself one of 4 people in the class of 30 or so actually participating in the discussion. Part way through I actually detached from the moment a bit and said "hunh? weird". It is similar to when I am around friends that I find interesting I sometimes never seem to shut up.

Now all that said, in both cases I will needed ample downtime alone, not saying anything, to recover. With all the fun I am having this weekend, I will still be very ready to not speak on Monday, probably all day.

cry cry bounce bounce panic bounce scream

that has been my day.
This is not normal.
So apologies to my lunch date who probably only followed about half of what I said.

Also, a cold pack and sunglasses inside. You do the math.

be well my friends.

Main Entry: love
Part of Speech: verb
Definition: adore, like very much
Synonyms: admire, adulate, be attached to, be captivated by, be crazy about, be enamored of, be enchanted by, be fascinated with, be fond of, be in love with, canonize, care for, cherish, choose, deify, delight in, dote on, esteem, exalt, fall for, fancy, glorify, go for, gone on, have affection for, have it bad, hold dear, hold high, idolize, long for, lose one's heart to, prefer, prize, put on pedestal, think the world of, thrive with, treasure, venerate, wild for, worship


( I've been thinking about love and relationships a lot recently. And passion and connection. )

Very very productive day. Laundry, groceries, studying, major post office run. Then home for dinner out with reedrover and quixotic_goat. TGIFriday's. Not my favorite but the sweet potatoe fries were delish and the company engaging as ever.

Now time to surf LJ a bit and stumble off to bed. I meant to make a music post earlier but didn't have time and am now too tired to look for the iPod.

night night LJ

It was a really good weekend that I have a lot to say about.
But that will be tomorrow, when plans are made and ideas acted upon.
For now I am off to be warm and cuddled.
And content in the knowledge that it will rain tomorrow.
Because inspired or not I am always me.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft."

Or in my case, before you forget.

I love farms and children on farms, i just feels right.
I get a certain tingly feeling when I get near old houses full of antiques
Autumn is very very special
Rain is amazing (ok this I never forgot, but it always bears repeating.)

And then there is the remembering of things I have never really had. Knowing that without the nodding heads of sleepy husbands we would have opened another bottle of wine and talked for a few more hours. Have a shortage of weekends because so many people want to see you.
I have fantastic friends.

I need to start doing these in Word when I think of them. Lots of ideas when I have no access to the web. Can't remember a damn one when I sit down to the interwebs. :P merf.
So I guess some bullets:

--> I have not totally lost all progress in the last five weeks. My formal from 6 years ago fits again and I have been comfortably wearing my size 4.5 engagement ring the last 2 days.

--> unpacking is moving along. Slowly but surely the house is taking shape. Hopefully we will be ready for guests in a week or so.

--> Interwebs hook-up scheduled for Monday. grrr...

--> Job hunt commencing. Going to do some networking with old employer Friday. Starting to design the portfolio add in for my resume. If anyone has any contacts in the architecture/building/design world I would love to meet them.

--> wine tasting and MC ball planned for Saturday. One is decidedly more fun sounding than the other.

--> I am currently perversely addicted to Legend of the Seeker. And no it is not a good translation of the books. Much to my dismay.

kk running off. More tomorrow.