I have a million ideas...
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darkfyre_museand just can't get them out, dammit. I am currently reading a book called "Finding Your Bipolar Muse". And one of the quotes pretty much sums up the last 15 or so years of my life.(Yes Half of it) "When I am in a mixed state I get all these ideas about writing and art and working but, I have no energy or motivation to do anything with them." Basically things get stuck in my head. (which is why often my lists of posts to make is huge but I never get around to doing anything about. And why often when I finally do write them down I apologize first about subjecting you to my drivel. {I actually haven't done that in awhile, neat.}) And why I cry when I write.
So since I seem to keep missing my opportunities to get this stuff out I am going to dump a list here and start picking through it. What I have been thinking about, musing over and generally distracted by.
~ Reading "Finding Your Bipolar Muse", in a completely random distracted 'I need a book mark way.
~ "I am NOT a Socialist" -- this is a rant that has been brewing for 2 months, it will be one of only 2
political posts that I will make this year.
~ faith -- mine, yours, the world at large
~ art and pain -- this one got in my head at 4AM some day last week. I got up with this huge idea of
explaining my creative process with two very specific paintings I did in college. That I
apparently never photographed. So I got up, dug them out of my portfolio, photographed them
and then spent almost an hour looking for either my download cable or the card reader, I
can find neither. The card is an xD (fuck you Olympus) so I can't the reader at work or on
the laptop. I forgot how much I loved those paintings. I need to start painting again.
~ work and frustration
~ sex -- and no not just that I'm not getting enough of this
~ sex and faith -- um yea this is ongoing and complicated beyond words so for 2 years I just haven't thought
much about it
~ what tuesday meant -- I had the most high, euphoric sense of being witness to something big
~ books -- while my stack is not nearly as impressive as![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
julesk 's (you are a literary goddess) it
is pretty varied at the moment at least for me
~ GenX vs GenY and starting to blog
Other than all that things of been pretty up and down. I thought that I had kicked the general depressed funk that I've been in since Burning Man a couple weeks ago. And I had, sort of. I traded it for some rapid cycling and mixed states. I have an appointment in 2 weeks and am deciding what to say when I get there.
Oh yea and I found a new DENTIST!! I know I know you are currently giving me an odd look and wondering why this is so exciting. Well #1 he wasn't mean to me. I don't know the last time you went looking for one or how long it had been between visits but in my experience and that of others I know closely dentists can be relatively callous, sometimes mean and generally unsympathetic to people that have emotional(fear/anxiety) and financial problems seeking out dental care. I am trying to not hate the profession as a whole. Currently Dr. Godinez is their only hope imo. It didn't hurt that I didn't have any cavities or disintegrating fillings.
So since I seem to keep missing my opportunities to get this stuff out I am going to dump a list here and start picking through it. What I have been thinking about, musing over and generally distracted by.
~ Reading "Finding Your Bipolar Muse", in a completely random distracted 'I need a book mark way.
~ "I am NOT a Socialist" -- this is a rant that has been brewing for 2 months, it will be one of only 2
political posts that I will make this year.
~ faith -- mine, yours, the world at large
~ art and pain -- this one got in my head at 4AM some day last week. I got up with this huge idea of
explaining my creative process with two very specific paintings I did in college. That I
apparently never photographed. So I got up, dug them out of my portfolio, photographed them
and then spent almost an hour looking for either my download cable or the card reader, I
can find neither. The card is an xD (fuck you Olympus) so I can't the reader at work or on
the laptop. I forgot how much I loved those paintings. I need to start painting again.
~ work and frustration
~ sex -- and no not just that I'm not getting enough of this
~ sex and faith -- um yea this is ongoing and complicated beyond words so for 2 years I just haven't thought
much about it
~ what tuesday meant -- I had the most high, euphoric sense of being witness to something big
~ books -- while my stack is not nearly as impressive as
julesk 's (you are a literary goddess) it is pretty varied at the moment at least for me
~ GenX vs GenY and starting to blog
Other than all that things of been pretty up and down. I thought that I had kicked the general depressed funk that I've been in since Burning Man a couple weeks ago. And I had, sort of. I traded it for some rapid cycling and mixed states. I have an appointment in 2 weeks and am deciding what to say when I get there.
Oh yea and I found a new DENTIST!! I know I know you are currently giving me an odd look and wondering why this is so exciting. Well #1 he wasn't mean to me. I don't know the last time you went looking for one or how long it had been between visits but in my experience and that of others I know closely dentists can be relatively callous, sometimes mean and generally unsympathetic to people that have emotional(fear/anxiety) and financial problems seeking out dental care. I am trying to not hate the profession as a whole. Currently Dr. Godinez is their only hope imo. It didn't hurt that I didn't have any cavities or disintegrating fillings.
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Date: 2008-11-06 14:12 (UTC)FyreMage called me an "apatheist" and I don't know how far wrong he is. I have a few memories and tags on the subject if you are at all interested.