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Well that sucked
Nov. 7th, 2007 13:46some suck and some not I guess. But in the end I got a negative balance.
The Good part: two weeks of happy happy mania. The good, energetic productive kind that I never get. It was fortuitous as well because we had a party this past Saturday night. So last week I was buzzing with cleaning and shopping and planing and decorating. The house looked fantastic. All shiny and neat and decked to the nines with Halloween goodness.
The Mixed: The party was a social flop. We had the food and the booze and music and ambiance. And a decided lack of guests. 6 Including my sister and a 5 month old. Those that were there were, however, high quality guests. People that we like and don't hang out with nearly enough. Two expected guests had good excuses, work and sick. Three others just suck and the rest I never really expected to come. It was a fun enjoyable evening. And despite the downer has inspired me to further social efforts.
The Bad: Painful crashing depressed exhaustion. I slept late Sunday, but managed to clean-up most of the party stuff, though am still working on the dishes. I then proceeded to have a major panic attack in the face of shopping for formal wear. Followed by much hiding in books. Monday brought another panic attack at the prospect on teaching. And the last 3 days have been pretty brooding and weeping.
Fortunately the weather has been a grey soothing balm to that which ails. It feels and smells of fall and has the cool grey skies of an early eastern spring. So for now I ride the waves of uncertainty but, things are starting to turn a corner. I really hope this weather holds awhile longer. I need it.
The Good part: two weeks of happy happy mania. The good, energetic productive kind that I never get. It was fortuitous as well because we had a party this past Saturday night. So last week I was buzzing with cleaning and shopping and planing and decorating. The house looked fantastic. All shiny and neat and decked to the nines with Halloween goodness.
The Mixed: The party was a social flop. We had the food and the booze and music and ambiance. And a decided lack of guests. 6 Including my sister and a 5 month old. Those that were there were, however, high quality guests. People that we like and don't hang out with nearly enough. Two expected guests had good excuses, work and sick. Three others just suck and the rest I never really expected to come. It was a fun enjoyable evening. And despite the downer has inspired me to further social efforts.
The Bad: Painful crashing depressed exhaustion. I slept late Sunday, but managed to clean-up most of the party stuff, though am still working on the dishes. I then proceeded to have a major panic attack in the face of shopping for formal wear. Followed by much hiding in books. Monday brought another panic attack at the prospect on teaching. And the last 3 days have been pretty brooding and weeping.
Fortunately the weather has been a grey soothing balm to that which ails. It feels and smells of fall and has the cool grey skies of an early eastern spring. So for now I ride the waves of uncertainty but, things are starting to turn a corner. I really hope this weather holds awhile longer. I need it.
