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Apr. 17th, 2007
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Apr. 17th, 2007 14:02I feel a lot like ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
jazzfish today. I can't wrap my brain around the senseless waste of it all. Yet I am 3000 miles and a lifetime away from Tech. So it seems less real. Today more real as I started to place faces with the victims. Oddly I was significantly more upset about Columbine. Why? Media exposure. I worked yesterday and do not have TV at home anymore. So the only exposure I had was the written word. And as most of you know written news is usually less sensationalised and more to the point than TV coverage. Leading to the question what is the value of sensationalised, extended coverage of these type of things. I think it definitely increases the emotional response. However, it also imparts a greater level of fear. I also remember feeling that the repeated coverage seemed to cheapen the event, turn tragedy into a profit oppurtunity. Where is the middle ground? The point where the media inspires empathy but, stops short of trivializing events into a media frenzy. Maybe by restricting coverage to PBS? I don't know. I am neither a journalist nor an ethicist to make such a judgment.
jazzfish today. I can't wrap my brain around the senseless waste of it all. Yet I am 3000 miles and a lifetime away from Tech. So it seems less real. Today more real as I started to place faces with the victims. Oddly I was significantly more upset about Columbine. Why? Media exposure. I worked yesterday and do not have TV at home anymore. So the only exposure I had was the written word. And as most of you know written news is usually less sensationalised and more to the point than TV coverage. Leading to the question what is the value of sensationalised, extended coverage of these type of things. I think it definitely increases the emotional response. However, it also imparts a greater level of fear. I also remember feeling that the repeated coverage seemed to cheapen the event, turn tragedy into a profit oppurtunity. Where is the middle ground? The point where the media inspires empathy but, stops short of trivializing events into a media frenzy. Maybe by restricting coverage to PBS? I don't know. I am neither a journalist nor an ethicist to make such a judgment.
Oh yea I turned 30
Apr. 17th, 2007 22:31Probably one of my least eventful birthdays to date. Between yesterday's surrealism, tax day and car drama I almost forgot about it.
We went out Sunday and I have tentative plans for the weekend, but after 1.5 hours in the car my sister paid her taxes and went to bed. Some dark chocolate and red wine and I'm happy for the evening.
We seem to be trained from birth to fear 30, I have not a clue why. I am happier and more stable (mentally, financially, romantically) than I have ever been. I will miss a few things from my 20s but, most of those are because I was a student and not necessarily a 20 something. I'm actually looking forward to my 30s. Build a house, have a baby, stretch as an architect, find a niche where I can have an impact.
I actually feel like I have found more of 'me' this year than I have in quite some time. And I feel like I have just scratched the surface.
I'm trying to wrap my brain around the idea of actually being 30. I just don't feel 'grown-up' enough to be 30. That sounds weird I know but, I'm still getting my shit together. And maybe all 30-somethings are, and that's the point. You never really grow out of any of it. You just add to it and hope for the best.
I'm looking forward to so many things this year. I guess its time to get busy.
love + peace + beauty
(musing on the userpic: 2 reasons I like it 1)Abby is just that cool 2) I am a nerd. Even at 30 I seem to have not grown out of it. Fortunately such things turn my husband on. "Give me the BRAIN!")(PS If you can identify the quote you get a cookie. clue:They were both disembodied at the time and it is sexual)
We went out Sunday and I have tentative plans for the weekend, but after 1.5 hours in the car my sister paid her taxes and went to bed. Some dark chocolate and red wine and I'm happy for the evening.
We seem to be trained from birth to fear 30, I have not a clue why. I am happier and more stable (mentally, financially, romantically) than I have ever been. I will miss a few things from my 20s but, most of those are because I was a student and not necessarily a 20 something. I'm actually looking forward to my 30s. Build a house, have a baby, stretch as an architect, find a niche where I can have an impact.
I actually feel like I have found more of 'me' this year than I have in quite some time. And I feel like I have just scratched the surface.
I'm trying to wrap my brain around the idea of actually being 30. I just don't feel 'grown-up' enough to be 30. That sounds weird I know but, I'm still getting my shit together. And maybe all 30-somethings are, and that's the point. You never really grow out of any of it. You just add to it and hope for the best.
I'm looking forward to so many things this year. I guess its time to get busy.
love + peace + beauty
(musing on the userpic: 2 reasons I like it 1)Abby is just that cool 2) I am a nerd. Even at 30 I seem to have not grown out of it. Fortunately such things turn my husband on. "Give me the BRAIN!")(PS If you can identify the quote you get a cookie. clue:They were both disembodied at the time and it is sexual)
