Bi-polar makes me suspicious of the happy. why? because manic happy, as opposed to regular happy, can do bad things if you don't heed the warnings. Unfortunately I ignored the whole thing for so many years that my ability to figure out what is a real mood and what is a manic depressive cycle is sometimes hard. So really it is less a suppression of feelings and more a analysis of what is actually happening. Manic can be really fun but it usually has a cost. Often a BIG cost.

I hope that made some sense. It is a little confusing to explain sometimes.

And while I know the bouncy comment was in jest. It was actually in the neighborhood of right. Go figure. But seriously I am not as generally angst-y as I sometimes seem. LJ is just a place to express myself where I am marginally sure that I won't impose of the mental landscape of those uninterested. And when life is good I type less.

I am planning to change that. Case in poit life is good today and I will cook up something not dark to say. :)