Unfortunately yes. I even made a conscious decision to be a good, healthful person and go to bed such that I would get 7 hours. 60 painful minutes later I was asleep. Things are going to be dealt with this week. I have two non drug routes that I have been avoiding. The last resort is the p-doc. Nice lady just a tad limited in how she sees the world. (up the dose, no thx)

A big part of this is, still, is that I am not quite sure what 'normal' for me is. There are healthy highs and lows and not healthy ones. If you complain about the healthy ones eventually they will probably get supressed. If you ignore the unhealthy ones they will hurt you. So it is a fine balance that I am still learning. (It doesn't help that some of the bad stuff, feels REALLY good.)

So today we will be pro-active and optimistic, life really doesn't suck if you try hard enough.